On "Boxes"

Hot take:  The sub-identities in the gay "community" are every bit as noxious as rigid hetero gender roles & every bit as OBnoxious as the transgender navel gazing over gender identities.  Every other word is "Bear/Twink," "Top/Bottom," "Butch/Femme," or "Sub/Dom," as if any of that shit means a thing beyond the superficial.  What happened to just being a person?  Your own person?  Why the overwhelming need to label every nuance of your personality, appearance & sexual preference & put yourself in a box?  Especially when most of those boxes are just bootleg imitations of mainstream hetero dynamics?  

It's not just gays/lesbians though: Everyone subscribes to one cult or another these days.  Whether it's actual religion, the Republican/Democrat 2-Party cult, the Hustle/Grind Culture that worships at the altar of Elon Musk & other billionaires, the Gender Identity cult or something else, very few people are thinking critically or for themselves.  It's "let me check with the group & see what we think. I'll get back to ya."  Or "here, watch me vomit up a tired mantra like "transwomen are women" or "Jesus is king" that's actually just meaningless, vague circular reasoning while thinking I've outwitted you."  

The slow-motion Civil War between conservatives/liberals since 9/11 is a prime example.  We've become completely incapable of judging ANY world event without the red-and-blue-tinted glasses of the 2-party paradigm, be it a natural disaster, foreign war, climate change, infectious disease or a vapid off-handed celebrity comment.  Liberals are expected to take one side, conservatives the other.  The problem with that is, there aren't always 2 equally valid sides.  Sometimes you're just wrong and sometimes, your wrongness is dangerous. 

Opinions and beliefs are welcome when discussing things like celebrity gossip or football teams or which fast food place has the best burger--NOT when it comes to the hard sciences. Whether you "believe" that climate change is caused by burning fossil fuels & has dire consequences for all life on Earth, the reality remains the same.  Wherever your "opinion" falls on COVID being a highly-transmissible airborne disease that causes lasting cardiovascular and immune damage, the reality remains the same.  Just as 2+2=4 can be proven with a series of steps, so can these other scientific assertions.  Whether you choose to ignore/dismiss that evidence is up to you, but it changes absolutely nothing.   Your beliefs do not influence reality, or, as some would say "Facts don't care about your feelings."  

Instead of assessing each topic individually & coming to a logical conclusion based on the evidence for ourselves, we default to letting our religious leaders, political spokesmen or fave influencers/celebrities do the thinking for us.  Because it's both easier & more socially acceptable to do so.  Nobody wants to take a stance that alienates their friends or loved ones, but failing to do so on certain issues makes you a coward & enabler of evil.  Sometimes it is better to be right than happy, but not when it comes to potentially dangerous things like climate or disease denial. And not all science topics are of equal consequence.  Even though gravity is real and the Earth is round, it doesn't really matter whether you "believe" those things.  But not believing that infectious diseases are a threat could cost you your life or those of others in your orbit.  



Our Pointless Bickering = a Useful Diversion for the Powerful 

Cults require a common enemy to strengthen the bonds between members.  Putting yourself in a tiny box labeled "Black transwoman," "neurodivergent boymom," "straight white Christian" or "bleedingheart liberal" means you'll soon be seeking an enemy to bolster your worldview & create stronger bonds with like-minded believers.  That leads to endless bickering online & IRL.  No meaningful change happens except to your blood pressure. 

Meanwhile the gap between rich & poor reaches new obscene heights as billionaires become "centi-billionaires" & living conditions deteriorate for everyone else.  Viruses & bacteria continue mutating to outsmart our immune defenses, landfills overflow worldwide due to overconsumption, species go extinct from "habitat loss" (read: human overpopulation).   Average annual temperatures continue creeping up as natural disasters like floods & wildfires become more severe & common.  The next mass shooter plans his crime & will succeed despite unconstitutional compromises like the Patriot Act & NDAA.  Prisons fill to overflowing with non-violent offenders.  Wealthy criminals beat the "justice" system like Epstein & Diddy & so many others named & unnamed.  Voting is treated like a sacred social duty that will solve our problems, meanwhile neither the Left nor Right trusts election results if they're not to their liking.  

The word FUTILE comes to mind.  Around & around we go, staying stuck in the same cosmic cycle of cognitive bias, willful ignorance and the real-world consequences of both.  It's not about keeping such an open mind your brain falls out--just the opposite.  Failing to think critically or applying reductive labels to yourself only creates more discord, and not the kind that's revolutionary or changes things for the better.  The kind that stresses your immune system & damages your mental health, estranges family members and friends from each other & makes life measurably worse for everyone. 

We're all human beings before we're a race, sex, "gender," sexual orientation, religion or national citizen.  We all have the same basic needs of food, clothing & shelter to survive as well as the emotional need to be accepted, acknowledged & respected.  Failing to realize that lies at the heart of most major atrocities throughout human history (not that we learn from history anyway). 

As long as technology is used solely to enrich its creators like it is now, it can never do what it was intended to do--increase lifespan & efficiency, reduce workload & make life easier for the human race.  We'll keep getting power grid-draining AI that puts artists, writers, teachers & other educated people out of a job.  Without a Universal Basic Income this will result in massive hardship & starvation for millions around the world.  As long as infectious diseases like COVID are allowed to run rampant through society, more healthcare workers will leave the field for good due to trauma & burnout.  If we continue letting our leaders dismantle public institutions like the postal system, public schools & public health orgs, pretty soon we won't have a country... at least not a functioning one.   

I don't have the answers to the world's problems.  All I know is that change starts with independent thinking & standing up to power, including the powerful members of your own cult.   Maybe especially them.  Better yet, break out of the self-imposed prison of groupthink and stay away from cults (aka "like-minded groups with a similar vision") altogether.  Be a human being first.  Do you.

Decision-Making, Made Easy

For all my young readers trying to decide on a career path, whether to settle down & start a family or stay single, go to college or trade school, to take a year off and travel or commit their lives to a religious path, to enter a heteronormative relationship or come out of the closet & embrace themselves as they are, allow me to simplify things for you. 

At every crossroads you come to in life there are 4 distinct paths, each with its own pros & cons.  If you will just remember these 4 options when making big decisions, it will help clarify things so you don't get overwhelmed with the seemingly endless options.  Because really, there are only these four:  

1.)  Do what you want to do.  In this reality, you do the thing you want to do and reject the reality you do not wish to choose.  You follow your dream, for better or worse.  By being true to yourself, you carve out your own path & live in alignment with your own highest good.  This option requires the most risk and sacrifice upfront but pays the highest dividends in the long run, and it doesn't require you to compromise your values.  It may frustrate or disappoint those around you, at least for a time.  But if they truly care about you they will eventually come around (speaking from experience on that).  "But isn't doing what you want selfish?"  Ehh, perhaps, but who says selfish is always bad?  It can be if you exclusively do what you want & never consider anyone else's feelings, but when it comes to major life decisions that will primarily impact YOU, it should be considered mandatory.

2.)  Don't do what you want to do.  This option sees you shying away from the thing you most want to do, though you also are not capitulating and doing whatever it is you don't want to do.  So say your family is pressuring you to major in criminal justice and you'd rather study fashion design:  You compromise & go into medicine.  You're not doing the thing you want to do (studying fashion design), though you're also avoiding the dreaded alternative (studying law).  In a sense, nobody wins, though you may be softening the blow by not choosing the option you most hate.

3.)  Don't do what you don't want to do.  This is like the last option but flipped on its head.  You may not be doing what you don't want to do, but you're still not doing whatever it is you dream of.  It may seem like a compromise but there are some things you just can't compromise on--you're actually just cheating yourself.  You may not realize how badly until you're looking back on your life from the finish line, but those kinds of regrets are the worst kind:  the big things, the close calls, the 'what-ifs'.  And that's the thing: it's YOUR life.  Nobody else will have to live with the outcome so nobody else should get a vote in how you live it.

4.)  Do what you don't want to do.  This is the worst of the 4 options because you're doing the thing you actively don't want to do while also shunning your own dreams & ambitions. It's the least brave & requires the least sacrifice, at least in the moment.  But in the long run you're sacrificing your individuality, your talent and potential, desires, hopes & dreams to fall in line with what society, your family, community or others expect of you.  It leaves you in a constant state of disharmony & inner turmoil because you're betraying your life purpose.


...actually, this has nothing to do with age and can be applied to anyone.  Time seems to accelerate with each passing year... you eventually realize you may not always have a "tomorrow" or "next year" to venture down a new path.  Whether there's something after this life or not, you'll have wanted to spend it in a way that aligns with your own inner beliefs, morals, values & desires.  In a study of hospice patients, the single biggest regret was "living for others instead of doing what I really wanted."  While you can't get back wasted time, you can change paths at any time and that is worth a lot. 

Also:  It's very hard to help or please others if you are miserable.  So put the mask on yourself first & choose wisely.  🙏🏻 

Bizzy Bone: An Unfinished Movie

 

Bizzy Bone fan mix by Lucky Lou



Is this the original/uncut version of Heaven'z Movie?  I don't know what it is exactly--part of it sounds like a fan mix pasted in from unreleased tracks, but.  BUT.  He has a full version of "Yes Yes Y'all" that sounds very legit.  Okay, somewhat legit.  Even if this ain't the real deal, the mixing/production is ON POINT.  This is who should produce Bone's future albums, dammit.  If nothing else, this masterpiece just shows how dirty Tomica Wright did Bizzy with this album, cutting his songs off at the knees in his prime.  

I remember listening to Heaven'z Movie for the first time: I was a teen sitting in my mom's car while she ran inside the downtown Goodwill (sketchy).  "Roll Call" was the dopest intro ever!  "Thugs Cry" came next... okay!  But then the next 2 tracks were cut brutally short in what sounded like a tape defect.  They didn't fade out or anything--particularly "Yes Yes Y'all," which just cut out in the middle of Capo's (or was it Mr. Maje$ty's?  They always sounded identical to me) verse.  What the fonk?!  I was seriously groovin' to that, why'd it just cut out?  Then a few more full-length tracks before another banger, "Brain on Drugs" was clearly cut off.  Something fucky was going on.  Nobody releases a half-baked album like this.  To this day I've still heard nothing like it... almost like it was a poorly-made mixtape rather than an actual album.

Come to find out, there were issues with sample clearance and likely some of the lyrics, which included ugly disses aimed at Tomica Wright herself: "Get up off your knees I'm all about business," "Lookin at me sexy take your clothes off but my d!ck'll go soft" and "Bankin' off my voice & makin' my choices she don't even know me!" being chief among them.  Bold choice there, B.  Dissing the label owner while ON the label?  Maybe not the smartest move.  Oddly though, those lyrics stayed IN which only made me wonder what was cut out.  





A true Bone fan!

In any case, Bizzy fans have been left for several decades without closure, begging for the original uncut versions to be released.  The estate of deceased producer Johnny J has teased full releases a couple times only to produce nada.  Guess we fans will have to do it ourselves.  Honest to God, some of the Youtube producers who have flipped Bone's music are more talented than whatever beat makers they had on their official albums.  One of those is definitely Lucky Lou. 

So go show Lucky Lou some love, and check out my music page while you're at it.  I don't rap or produce or nuffin' but I do love music.  You'll find Wu-Tang, Cypress Hill, Bone, OutKast & many more playlists there.  🙌🏼

The Real Reason Child Abusers & Rapists Get Such Light Sentences

Eric Menendez was denied parole on August 22nd, 2025.

Eric's older brother Lyle Menendez was denied parole the following day.  Despite showing major improvements, the judge said Lyle "exhibited antisocial traits".  Whatever the fuck that means.  

Both men have been rotting in prison for 36 years for killing their physical, sexual & verbal tormenters who also happened to be their birth parents.  It's since been proven that their father Jose also raped one of the members of boy band Menudo.  OH WELL.  Their first trial featured uncensored pornographic photos of the boys taken by their father as well as graphic details about how mother Kitty also sexually abused older brother Lyle.  And lots of tears that couldn't have been fake unless these were classically trained actors who'd completed their education at Juliard.  They hadn't, which let me know the "abuse excuse" as it was later termed was nothing of the sort.  Their parents not only threatened to kill them, they took them on an isolated boat trip shortly before the crime during which both boys were convinced they were going to actually be killed & fed to sharks. 

After shooting their parents,  they were apprehended after a confidential-confession-gone-wrong when a psychotherapist breached his ethical oath & turned them in.  Imagine that.  (Actually, it was his mistress who overheard the whole thing while eavesdropping outside his office, which is somehow even less professional).  At the time, total doctor-patient privacy was the law of the land which in some peoples' opinions should've gotten the whole case thrown out.  But because the trial happened in the same county as the O.J. shitshow and, prior to that, the Rodney King nightmare, the court felt pressure to appear "tough" on crime and banned any discussion of the horrific abuse these men suffered their entire lives at their 2nd trial.  

Hidden in plain sight: Epstein's surveillance cameras

Photos courtesy the NY Times

Meanwhile not a single child rapist in the Diddy or Epstein cases will face prosecution or trial.  (Or even interrogation, to our knowledge).  This, despite hours of video and photo evidence (CSAM to be clear) documenting the rape of these victims, some as young as 12 in the Epstein case & 10 in the Diddy case.  Both Diddy & Epstein engaged in the odd behavior of bugging their bedrooms.  (Why would anyone engaging in such blatantly illegal behavior want EVIDENCE of said crimes?)  If for some reason that wasn't damning enough for the FBI, there are the flight logs & other financial records tying the perps to the crimes (as is the case with any crime--it's called "evidence").  

Alas, after watching hours or days' worth of CSAM on the taxpayers' dime, the Feds decided on our behalf that nobody should be held legally responsible for the rape of these children.  Not one high-powered attorney (Alan Dershowitz), politician (Bill Clinton, Donald Trump), royal family member (Prince Andrew, Mohammed bin Salman), celebrity (Naomi Campbell, Mick Jagger, Alec Baldwin, Michael Jackson), billionaire (Bill Gates, Elon Musk, Richard Branson) or religious leader (Pope John Paul II) would be apprehended or tried... even those still with us. 



Punishing the Victim: the American Way

Extremely optimistic estimates: Real #s are likely closer to 1 in 6 boys & 1 in 4 girls.

The same can't be said for those who have the gall to neutralize a violent pedophile to save their own life or put a stop to decades of abuse.  Our leaders have proven time & again they won't protect us from these monsters, yet we're not allowed to protect ourselves either.  It's a Catch-22, a rock and one of the hardest places imaginable.  Cops too lazy to chase after unarmed, non-violent suspects can shoot them in the back & not spend a day in jail, but a "civilian" who takes out the human garbage by eliminating a threat to their own life rots in prison for it.

Murderer had a history of brutal child abuse.  Years in prison:  Less than 3.

This may be the single issue both republican & democrat voters agree on:  that pedophiles & child abusers deserve nothing less than life in prison (although some would go further & say death).  Yet sentences for child abuse up to and including murder are notoriously mild when they're handed out at all.  Just see the recent case of Emmanuel Haro, the missing child whose father has a history of severe child abuse resulting in the near death of 10-month-old Promise, who suffered the following injuries at his hands in 2018:

“An ‘acute’ fractured rib, ‘healing’ fractures of six ribs, a skull fracture, a brain hemorrhage, swelling of the neck and a ‘healing’ fractured leg bone...  indicative of abuse (sic) head trauma, child physical abuse and nutritional neglect.”

She is now 7 and can neither talk nor walk, and she is blind.  How long did the perpetrator of these horrific acts spend behind bars for his barbaric crimes?  I'm having a hard time finding his sentencing and release dates, but he was jailed some time in 2023.  It's now 2025 and he was on probation at the time Emmanuel went missing, so needless to say he didn't serve more than 2 years for inflicting lifelong severe disabilities on an infant girl.   Oh, and Emmanuel was born without the severe abnormalities present in his later photos, which suggests this animal did the same thing to him as to the little girl.

Mr. Haro is not an exception to the rule, nor is he a wealthy or powerful man.  In fact he & the childrens' mother lived in a fucking yurt in the Arizona desert.  However being wealthy almost guarantees you'll never see the inside of a jail cell even if you literally confess to the most abhorrent crimes in front of a judge.  That's what DuPont Heir Robert H. Richards IV did when he pled guilty to raping his toddler daughter in what honestly sounded like a plea to be taken off the street & stopped.  Instead, Jan Jurden, the Delaware judge on the case, suspended his meager 8-year sentence in favor of "treatment" & probation.  He spent not one day behind bars.  Did I mention he was later taken to civil court by his ex-wife for allegedly abusing  his son?    

Both of these cases involve predictable, preventable 2nd crimes by convicted child abusers who had already been found guilty of committing the most heinous acts against society's most vulnerable victims & were released to rape & brutalize again.  At the same time, adult women & children of abusers and human traffickers who use firearms in self-defense receive unjust sentences.  (See the documentary "The Perfect Victim" if you have a strong stomach).  



Victims as Collateral Damage

Cyntoia is free now, but only because of activism by celebrities like Kim Kardashian.

It's all too clear whose rights, freedoms & lives our legal system is set up to protect.  Brave people like Cyntoia Brown (child sex trafficking victim) and Gypsy Rose Blanchard (Munchausen's survivor), who in a sane society would be given parades are instead given decades-long sentences or occasionally life in prison for courageously putting a stop to their abuse when everyone else has failed them.  Meanwhile maniacs like George Zimmerman & Kyle Rittenhouse can chase and gun down total strangers in the street with no consequences.  This is by far the most insidious, least recognized form of misogyny, inequality & disregard for the sanctity of human life in our society today, far eclipsing the alleged "cruelty" of terminating an unwanted pregnancy by choice or failing to use someone's preferred pronouns.  Or whatever other nonsense Americans consider offensive to their sensibilities.  

The message is clear:  Victims of physical, sexual & spiritual abuse have no right to stop their tormenters from continuing to harm or even kill them.   Domestic violence & sexual assault simply aren't taken seriously by lawmakers, law enforcement or anyone else in power.  And why would they be?  Our last 2 presidents have had credible rape accusations against them.  (Don't get me started on Brett Kavanaugh or Clarence Thomas).  Women & children are still viewed as property; chattel to be bought, sold, used, abused & discarded as violent men see fit.   The dynamics of abuse are not only misunderstood by those in power--as we all witnessed in the Gabby Petito case when the victim was labeled the offender by Utah police & handed back over to her soon-to-be murderer.  No, that's not it.  It's that nobody gives a good goddamn.  And why should they when they know the American public will just forget about whatever horrors make the news after a few months without so much as a riot, strike or other form of protest. 

It's a classic case of getting the government and society we deserve.  And of "If it ain't broke, don't fix it".  While the system appears VERY broken from where we're sitting, it's working just fine for those at the top who never have to answer to anybody except perhaps the sly intelligence agent-slash-"financier" who's blackmailing them in exhchange for political favors.  

Speaking of which...

Post from Virginia Giuffre's Twitter account

D.C. Madam Deborah Jean Palfrey makes similar statement before being found dead.

One Nation Under Blackmail

Drawing from Epstein's 50th Birthday book.  

I don't know about you, but I don't want to live in a country where whistleblowers, journalists, coroners & other finders of fact are murdered, locked up or exiled regularly.  What happened to Snowden & Assange still sends chills down my spine, and they got off light compared to the likes of Karen Silkwood, the 2 Boeing whistleblowers, OpenAI whistleblower Suchir Balaji & the 2 journalists who had the balls to write exposes on Diddy whose causes of death are still listed as "unknown" (Erica Kennedy & Terrance Dean).  Then there's the D.C. Madam, who announced that she was NOT suicidal before being found dead of an alleged suicide in 2008, which is eerily similar to what happened to vocal Epstein survivor Virginia Giuffre only days before the case blew up in American media again.  And don't forget about Craig Spence in the '80s.

I don't want to live in a country (or world) where top-ranking officials & wealthy elite treat child sexual abuse as some kind of job perk & either willingly submit themselves to blackmail or put themselves in idiotically compromising positions in exchange for the "privilege" of abusing kids.  Not only because those children deserve to grow up without being abused, but because the blackmail is committed in exchange for political favors that affect all of us.  The ones doing the blackmailing twist their arms to get favors that could include anything from exempting billionaires from taxation to the current decimation of Medicaid/Medicare/Social Security we're seeing. 

When contemplating our unflinching loyalty to a country like Israel that's never given us a single tangible good or service in their entire existence as a nation, one has to wonder how much of that is based on this sort of gun-to-the-head forced allyship.  Meanwhile Democrats are obsessed with dogging Russia and Repubs constantly poke at China, who we rely on for nearly all our consumer goods including vital medications, foods & medical machinery.  Not too bright.  

As harmful as child sexual abuse is, so is the starvation of children that happens when a family's only income (a parent's government job or welfare check) is reduced or cut off without notice by cruel politicians like Trump, whose idea of "balancing the budget" includes slashing every federal program that makes us a civilized society all in the name of sparing billionaires the indignity of paying a dime of federal taxes.   We're estimated to lose an additional 50,000 Americans due to lack of health insurance under the Big Beautiful Bill, and some of those deaths are bound to be parents.  Others, children.  You can't claim to care about kids or the sanctity of human life while supporting such cruel legislation. 

And the question remains: WHY NOT JUST MANDATE TAX PAYMENTS FOR BILLIONAIRES?  It would fix so many of the problems in our society, from crumbling roads & bridges to a DOA postal system to our atrocious public school system.  And it wouldn't hurt their pocketbook at all--they would still be unbelievably, unimaginably, filthy rich.

I have to believe things like Epstein's footage play a role in decisions like this that are made by both parties equally over time.  Is Trump merely acting so aggro because he's butthurt that he got shot in the ear & put through those bogus trials, or is kompromat involved?  Based on his recent bizarre/shady behavior regarding the Epstein saga, I'd say there's a good chance it's the latter.  I just hope that if his MAGA supporters, the Proud Boys, Oath Keepers, Three Percenters & QAnon could rally the strength for an insurrection in the midst of a COVID pandemic in the name of... what, exactly?  Tearing up some Reuters & AP camera equipment & shitting on the walls of Congress?  That they will do the same to protest this administration's blatant coverup of child sexual abuse on a scale too massive for most of us to comprehend.  And I hope Antifa, Black Bloc, BLM, Extinction Rebellion, Redneck Revolt & all the other leftist counterprotest groups will get off their asses & join them, not because they have a shared political ideology, but because stopping the abuse of children by society's most powerful members is something we all should have as a top priority regardless of any other views you may hold.  Ideological purity is a comfort we can't afford right now.  We need numbers, solidarity & organization.  Lord knows the 0.0001% have these things in spades. 

And everybody talks a good game about what they'd do to a chomo if they go their hands on them, but when a family member, friend, favorite celeb or politician is the perpetrator?  The Devil's Advocate comes out to play, often slandering victims in the process.  Hate to break it to ya, but if you do this you're not only complicit but as vile as the abusers themselves.  Evil is evil no matter who commits it.  If I encounter any of you rape apologists online or IRL, expect to be called what you are: an enabler of child abuse whose hard drives should probably be checked too.

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Where Was the Concern...

Right.  And now you lot are doing the same thing with the "groyper" BS.

Where was all this concern, the self-righteous moralizing, the crocodile tears from pundit reporters, the flags flown at half-staff, the cliche musings on our dying Democracy...

...when the kids referenced in Charlie's cruel speech about gun rights were slaughtered in Tennessee?

...when Democrat Melissa Hortman & her husband were gunned down in their bed by a police-impersonating MAGA maniac who also had a list of over SEVENTY other targets including healthcare providers?

...when Paul Pelosi was savagely attacked by a hammer-wielding rightwinger in his own home?  An attack Charlie Kirk himself openly celebrated?

...when leaders from both sides of the aisle send billions to a wealthy foreign country to help them bomb hospitals, schools, refugee camps & zoos, murdering  64,803 Palestinian civilians by "official" counts (over 200,000 according to Israeli commander Herzi Halevi)? 


I could go on but will stop there as I know you don't have a rational excuse for this hypocrisy anyway.  Needless to say I'd take you all a lot more seriously if you didn't show so much cruelty and indifference to other tragedies of equal or greater severity.  

My indifference to this clown show doesn't equal a "celebration of the death" of Charlie, it reflects my disgust at the hypocrisy of so many conservatives both in the media & real life.  Watching you twist yourselves into pretzels lionizing a man who died by exactly the same principles he lived would be amusing if not so damn dangerous.  You're consenting to the exact thing Kirk spent his life arguing against: the inevitable loss of freedoms/rights we all experience when one tragic event is turned into an excuse for war, oppressive new laws like the Patriot Act & other unconstitutional measures.  It's abundantly clear that some lives matter much more than others in your eyes based on the disproportionate attention you give this ONE tragedy compared to so many others with far greater death tolls, many involving innocent women or children.

This was public knowledge BEFORE the 2024 election.  Over 50% of Americans voted for this r^pist anyway (while screaming "Save the Children").  

As a politically homeless unaffiliated voter, the hypocrisy from both "sides" has become unbearable.  It's a "point one finger, three point back at you" situation that's sure to leave this once-great nation in a heap of smoldering ashes like much of Yemen, Palestine & all the other countries that dare resist the stranglehold of "Western democracy."  Sorry, but you don't get to claim the moral high ground when your cult leader is an Epstein-affiliated chomo with multiple credible rape allegations (including from his own ex-wife!) who has done more to drive political "division" in the last decade than our last 5 presidents combined.  The Republican & Democrat cults are the equivalent of organized, state-sponsored Bloods and Crips gangs, and now they've got us playing the "kill one of mine I'll kill 3 of yours" game.  Exactly as intended.  Bin Laden's "death by a thousand cuts" strategy has worked.  Stick a fork in us, we're crispy.  

The real kicker?  Those who allegedly supported Kirk and his message are now going out of their way to doxx anyone who dared not react to his death the way they deemed appropriate, fully aware that it could get them fired from jobs or much worse.  More hypocrisy.  I would urge all internet users to up their OPSEC game because things are about to get a lot uglier.  In a country where sharing the wrong views can get you audited by the IRS, dropped by payment processors or deported, it appears people still haven't gotten the message about not linking their real identity to their online activity.     

As liberal & conservative influencers trip over themselves to lay the blame for Kirk's killing at each other's feet, one thing is glaringly apparent, at least to those of us who see through the 2-party con:  The U.S. is in its terminal stages (and so are its last 2 presidents, apparently).  Whether that's a thing to mourn or celebrate depends entirely on which side of the looking glass/algorithm you're looking through.  

An Ass Outta U

 


People make an awful lot of assumptions & logic leaps they have no business making.  Even if you could oh, I dunno,  read a person's every Google search, email, private message & handwritten journal entry, you still have N-O idea what's going on in their mind or life, or what they've gone through to get to that point...the context behind it.  You don't know what they're like when not being perceived (read: alone) vs. in your presence, around only you vs. others, what they're like in a relationship vs. single, under extreme stress vs. a period of good fortune & so on.  What you see, no matter how telling or complete it appears in that moment, is always just a sliver of the Big Picture.  But you can only understand this if you give said Picture a chance to develop before storming out & going conclusion-jumping.  You know, conclusion-jumping?  It's kinda like base-jumping or bungee jumping but way more dangerous, at least to relationships.  

People say "walk a mile in my shoes" but that's literally impossible.  What they really mean is "listen to me, TAKE ME AT MY WORD and at least feign some empathy.  Pretend you believe me or care even if you don't.  But whatever you do, please don't gaslight me or argue with my basic perception of reality."  You shouldn't need to know exactly how somebody feels or have gone through an identical situation to empathize because empathy is not about YOU.  Just the opposite.  You should be able to see that someone's struggling (or thriving) and feel pain (or joy) for them.  When in doubt, follow their lead.  Do they seem elated?  Depressed?  Confused as Biden at a sundown debate?  Then take that & run with it.

No matter what I'm going through, good bad or indifferent, I always find myself having to over-explain and present a case to "prove it".   I've been told "You can't possibly be that dumb/helpless" when asking for help or "you don't know what you're talking about" when I very much DO.  This wears on your self-worth after a while by making you question your own perception of reality.  If nothing else, a person wants to believe that they understand themselves.  But when you're constantly told you're wrong whether you're confident or asking for help, you start to believe it and give up altogether.  Why bother doing your best, showing up on time, being honest/sober/polite when you'll just be accused of something you didn't do or treated like a criminal anyway?

Eventually you find that living down to their expectations is just easier.  And why not?  They've already made up their mind about you anyway.





Line in the Sand

Do not cross

No more.  You do NOT know me better than I know myself.  No amount of shady gossipping, backdoor intel gathering or other sneaky, underhanded bullshit will ever be as effective as just fucking ASKING me directly what you wanna know.  Since some of you seem so fucking invested (lol), I'll let you in on a little of what's going on in my life of late:

My sister, who is a single mom, just quit her job & has no idea what to do next.  (The story is much worse than that but isn't mine to tell).  I have both a cousin and an old friend who are actively dying, neither is a day over 55 (one isn't even 45).  And I found out today that my best friend in this world is having pretty severe health problems & isn't sure what's causing them just yet, but she has an extensive family history of cancer which is always at the back of my mind. 

On the financial front, there's a legal issue with 80 acres of my family's land involving the greediest member of said family, and my insurance randomly decided to stop covering my ADHD meds.  Oh, and my brother just lost his insurance & had to quit his cholesterol & blood pressure medications cold turkey.  I'm sure there's more but I'll stop there.  Every day is a new fresh Hell under the Trump admin.  There's no shortage of things I could rage-write about, from the genocide in the Middle East to the obscene Diddy verdict to the likely pardon for Jizzlaine Maxwell.  Yet I feel a moment of silence is in order. 

So for the rest of the summer, you won't hear much from me on this medium, not because I'm abandoning it (or you) but because I need a fucking minute.  MY life is going smoothly except for the nonsense mentioned above, so no worries there.  It's everybody I love that's got me stressin'.  🌡🥵

TL;DR - I'm off to spiral deeper into unhealthy coping mechanisms while taking on the problems, emotional burdens & chaos of others... as per usual.  If that bothers you, by all means help me.  Offer an alternative avenue:  Donation$, l♥ve, real tangible physical or emotional 🫂 support.  A sympathetic ear or friendly shoulder to cry on.  Otherwise you don't get a vote in how I cope.  I'll see ya when I see ya.

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Ozzy Osbourne: Drugs Did NOT Make Him That Way

I was never a huge Black Sabbath fan--they were before my time if I'm honest.  I'm more familiar with the reality show The Osbournes, which I also didn't watch at the time as I thought it was lame (though I'm revising that opinion after watching it the other night).  In any case, an opinion I keep seeing bandied about as fact is that Ozzy's speech and movement problems--indeed his behavioral problems & eventual degeneration & death--were a result of a lifetime of drug abuse.  Even Ozzy himself says so in one of the episodes of the reality show.  I saw one of the science pages I follow recently spout this same tired trope recently & had to correct them.  

Ozzy suffered from a variant of Parkinson's disease known as "Parkin 2".  Named after the gene that causes it, Parkin 2 is an early-onset form of Parkinson's that affects both movement and behavior.  It can even cause autism.  The median age of onset is 31 years, which means Ozzy likely had this the entire time he was in the spotlight.  Rather than being caused by his drug abuse, it probably contributed to it as well as to his strange & often violent behavior (biting the head off a bat, choking out his wife Sharon, etc).  It's slowly progressing but as stated, can cause a wider variety of issues than just movement problems, and it's 100% genetic.  That means things like head trauma or drug abuse can't cause it.  

The unavoidable question is whether his 6 children will inherit this faulty gene and, if so, how it will manifest.  Son Jack already has multiple sclerosis though he seems to be doing well managing it.  I find it tragic that Ozzy blamed himself for his health issues as late as the early 2000s and cite this as another example of pseudoscientific anti-drug propaganda causing real-world harm.  While the abuse of certain drugs like methamphetamine has been linked to an increased risk of Parksinson's disease, there's absolutely zero evidence that drugs caused Ozzy Osbourne's purely genetic form of the disease.  (Or any of the odd behavioral or speech anomalies that go along with the Parkin 2 variant he suffered from).  That means everyone who mocked the way he spoke or claimed that he was "brain damaged" due to drugs over the years owes the family a huge apology.  Like this wench who had the gall to sue Sharon Osbourne for assault after calling her husband a "brain dead rockstar" and "a vegetable".  🤬